Stress... teenagers' worst nightmare

Now, let's go back in time, to the wonderful and happy day of Tuesday. So, Shannen and I planned to go out to eat Satay. In the afternoon, or rather, evening, I over-napped. So, I wanna call Shannen that I won't be going already. The problem is that

my handphone died!!

Why do I need my cellphone? It's because Shannen's number is in the phone. So, I went to look for my charger. But, I

lent my charger to my cousin brother

Okay, the problems are building up. Soon, the word slipped out of my mouth and I kinda like

told my father that I lent my charger to my cousin brother

Now, why is that bad? My father has this issue with my cousin living in my house, and doesn't really like it.

So, I borrowed my father's phone, exchanged sim cards. Turned on the phone, and you know what, I realized that

Shannen's number wasn't in my Sim Card!!

Called Jun Ray to ask for Shannen's number, but no luck. So, I gave up, but my father, sorta lectured me about "son, you shouldn't lend your phone to somebody else, if you know that your phone is gonna die. Besides, why should you even lend your own property to somebody else??". The nagging went on and on. I tried to keep my tears in, but my emotions surpassed my effort of trying to keep them in my heart. So, I shed some tears. I was really mad. I guess he didn't really understand me. I was trying to be generous, and my phone was incredibly full of energy when I lent my charger to my cousin. It's just that I played a game on my phone, so it died. But, I guess my father and I have different opinions, and he is just, somewhat, caring for me. So, I don't blame him. I love him, he's a part of the family. Still, I don't really agree with what he said. But, might as well let it go. It's futile trying to argue with the head of the family.

Now, here's the start of the stress. After that incident, I got really guilty. I spewed out the message that my cousin borrowed my charger to my father. And because of that, I was incredibly scared that my father would scold him. I really don't want that to happen. Seeing family members fight in front of me can really tear my heart into pieces. As much as I hate it, I just don't have the right to stop it. I shouldn't be a busy body and barge into other people's issues. But, if I don't stop the fight, I fear my family might drift apart. That's a bit too serious isn't it, more of like jumping to conclusions. But, I just can't stop thinking the worst. I'm an incredibly sensitive person, in terms of emotions.

Fortunately, my cousin didn't get a scolding, I think. I slept early that day so I won't see anything serious happening. But I guess, nothing really happened. Okay, that's Tuesday. Now, Wednesday...

During Interact Club meeting, I accidentally ruined Audrey's group's Civics project. I did apologize, but, it wasn't enough. Even if Audrey forgave me that time and said "Oh, nevermind lah", I just can't get over my guilt. I destroyed somebody else's project and not doing anything about it, apart from saying sorry. When I came back home, I called Miu Yinn to tell her about the problem and asked if it's restore-able. But, she deleted the photos in her computer already. So I was like, "Oh shit... what have I done...". The whole day I couldn't stop forgetting about that project I ruined. The whole day I was thinking "What can I do?? I am so careless!!"

Today, I wanted to apologize to Audrey about the whole project thing again. But after David advised me that I should get over my guilt, I reconsidered. David told me, sooner or later, she'll forget about it. So I thought, if I apologized again, I'll remind her about the ruined project. Dang, if her gang gets low marks for the project. I'll be seriously upset, because I was the one responsible of destroying the project. Sigh... I'm a very careless person. No?

Right, that's not the end. Oh no. I got these things to finish

1. Civics project. I gave Shannen the things to type, and she's gonna type the project. But I'm still quite worried.
2. Robotics. I'm going for the National Robotics Competition next week, Tuesday. The Lego robot still doesn't work really well. I just don't know what to do...
3. Finish up the program booklet for Interact Installation Day. Yeah, my job is just to retype everything and print it out, then get 50 photocopies of it, but, still, the dateline is next week. I'm waiting for my friend to finish everything up and send them to me.

Sigh... I've never hand so much stress in one week. I'm not in a good mood now. Man, if only life is better than this. I guess, life can never always be nice to you.