I'm in hot soup, or rather, hot fudge

I'm panicking!!! I seem to have lost my KH book from SPBT!!! Why am I panicking?? I could just buy a new book and replace the old one right?? The thing that worries me is the testimonial, or more specifically, my "Rasa Tanggungjawab". Losing an SPBT book is an irresponsible thing to do. What if I get a B for that??? I really want all A's for my testimonial. I'll wait until next Monday. If I fail to find my book, I have to tell En. Alim already. (Well, he's the one in charge of SPBT. That's what I think anyway)

"Why should you tell the teacher?? Billy, are you nuts?? Just go get a new book lah!!" should be the response of some of you out there. It might sound crazy, but I think it's the right thing to do. I must be responsible for my actions. If he decides to punish me because I lost one freaking book, I have to accept it. It is my fault for losing the book anyway. And also, what if I need to write anything, or sign whatever form confirming the replacement of the SPBT book or whatever?? I should do that before it's too late. And if I don't see the teacher in-charged, I won't be able to do that. Sigh... seeing my testimonial in jeopardy is one turning point in my life that I won't forget (don't count on that, I can lose memory quite fast). I checked the KH bengkel, no book, I checked my desk, no book.

Somehow, I just wish the whole thing that I typed above is just another one of my lame jokes.

Okay, so, I might be in trouble. What else?? Today I napped 4 hours!!! That's not a good news for me. I was supposed to nap for only 1.5 hours, or maximum of 2 hours. I ignored alarm and slept so long. You might not get why this is not good to me. I'm just worried that it might change my circadian cycle, or erm... sleeping cycle/rhythm. If that changes, my sleeping time changes, and who knows what might happen to me in the morning. I might get even more crankier. Now, my normal sleeping time:

• On school days, including Koko days (scouts), that require me to wake up early in the morning, I'll sleep at around 11.00pm and wake up at 6.30am.
• On holidays, my sleeping time will be indefinite. But, depending on my sleepiness, I'll sleep between 11.00pm - 1.30am, and wake up between 9.00am - 11.00am. I rarely wake up at 8.00am. I'll get hypersomnia during holidays, ie, sleep more than before.

If I slept for 4 hours today, I would have patched up my 4 hours of deprived sleep from yesterday. This is what I believe will happen, but obviously, science wont really back me up on this. I mean, it happens sometimes for me.

• Tonight, I'll sleep at the same time, ie, 11.00pm. If my 4-hours-sleep side effect were to take place, I won't be able to sleep well. I'll get so tired in the morning. Then, I'll probably nap in the afternoon. After napping, I won't be that tired later in the night. So, I have to sleep a little late to compensate for that. Maybe at 11.30pm - 12.00am. That slight change of time can really influence my crankiness factor the next day. The possible things that can happen is:
  1. I might get lucky. Because I wasn't so sleepy, and I slept late a bit, and my hypersomnia didn't kick in, I might wake up feeling very ...okay. My eyes won't be drooping down. That's the one thing I'm aiming for. If I don't feel so tired in the morning, I'll reset my sleeping cycle, and my sleeping time will go back to normal. Actually, it could go back to 10.00pm, the normal time of sleeping last time. If I sleep at 11.00pm, everything happens again, but it doesn't really affect me much.
  2. This is the bad one, which I don't want to get. My hypersomnia suddenly kicks in. My compensation for napping will deprive me of 1 hour of sleep. My normal duration of sleeping due to hypersomnia is 10-12 hours. Sleeping at 11.30pm-12am until 6.30am is a total of 6.5-7 hours. Call that 7 hours lah, for easier calculations. Assuming my hypersomnia requires me to sleep at least 10 hours, this is the math:
     
     10 hours-Amount of time slept+Amount of time deprived of sleep= Total amount of sleep deprivation
     
     10-7+1=4 hours of deprived sleep.
     
     Now that's a lot!!! It's not going to be easy trying to reset my sleeping cycle. I've got to prevent myself from napping no matter how tired am I, so that at night, I'll be so tired, I can sleep early (10.00pm), and get at least 8 hours of sleep.
     
     

I know, everything sounds so complicated. And I have no scientific proof at all. Who needs proof?? This thing is only for me, and doesn't apply to everybody in the universe. The thing that caused me all those problems is my hypersomnia problem, my ability, or rather, my urge to sleep longer. It also cause me to get sleepy during the afternoon.